Cerita-cerita Zainur

Hi pretty ladies!

My wedding dress is almost done! I'm happy but I'm also worry...

Last weekend I went back to KL for the first fitting session. I was lucky because the designer came all the way from PJ to my house which is quite far away. Thanks to him! Maybe because he doesn't own a boutique yet! Yes, he's new talented designer and I entrust him to design my wedding dress by giving away those beautiful beaded chiffon that I bought at Jakel...

Actually, the dress fit me well even though, my friend who is the one took my body measurement. Of course lah I won't let any guy pegang-pegang me sesuka hati kan. Even my fiance pun tak pernah sentuh, and i would never let him touch me tho' until dah sah suami isteri! Even if i had to see a doctor pun I prefer a lady doc. That means I memang jarang-jarang jumpa doctor unless betul-betul sakit sampai ngak boleh tahan. Plus, I memang takut dengan doc pun walaupun my dad and my sis adalah doktor. Huhuhu...

Back to the dress, baju tu okay. (Okay, jah?) Tapi entah kenapa saya rasa saya nampak tak cantik bila pakai baju tu.... Adakah disebabkan saya yang ketot ini? I'm only 153 cms Yep, baju tu labuh sedikit. Tapi, if i wear high heels I think it should be ok! Mungkin juga sebab material dia dari chiffon yang sangat lembut dan nipis dan jarang tu buat saya rasa tak selesa? Damn! Without those beaded baju tu nampak macam jarang especially kalau terdedah kepada pancaran cahaya matahari walaupun dialas dengan kain satin tapi i still rasa jarang kot? Oh, kawan-kawan, saya sebenarnya tak biasa pakai baju yang lutsinar dan sendat-sendat. Saya rasa malu dan kurang keyakinan diri.

Kalau kawan-kawan nak tahu saya tak tengok pun diri saya sendiri di cermin tatkala dress tu tersarung di tubuh. Sebab we all baru move in ke rumah yang baru renovate tu and there's no mirror especially yang full length punya. So, I couldn't see myself with the baju and I felt either me or the baju is ugly.....

Kadang-kadang fikiran jahat merasuk diri.... Kalau lah I buat moden kurung aje tentu dah cantik. Sebab kain chiffon tu memang sangat cantik corak dia. Tapi, bila saya minta dia buat dress he has no choice but to buy extra new kain and potong-potong beaded atas chiffon yang i beli tu untuk ditampal atas new kain....Tak tahulah akan cantik atau tidak.... Tapi, dalam gambar yang dia sketch sangat cantik. Now, i berserah aje pada takdir.... Malas dah nak fikir.... In fact, baju bertandang untuk sebelah hubby pun tak ada lagi. Boleh tak I nak pakai baju biasa aje.. Haha...sure lah kena kutuk and mengata dek orang kan.

I wanna look gorgeous on my wedding day tapi.............entahlah..... I'm hoping that bila baju tu dah totally siap it will look gorgeous on me... Biarlah berbaloi apa yang I bayar pada dia tuh. Kalau tak my make artist kena la solek and dandan I cantik-cantik on that day..... Yerla siapa yang tak nak nampak cantik kan di hari pernikahan sendiri. So, pray for the best lah...ameen!


psst: 95 days left! Tapi banyak lagi unsettle things...urghhh....dengan IELTS exam, research proposal, new students comings, kursus, kursus, kursus and lots of other things coming up....sempat ker nak buat preparation? Goshhh....